i'm an emo wreck

babes, i'm emo
CNY celebrations at AC was mega fun luh!
ALL THOSE WHO WERENT THERE! you guys missed out on the fun!

back to stc to meet up with cass, shan, laine, jiang, cheryl.
coro to collect shan's stuff. island creamery. towned to shop.
i think it was the lack of sleep this week. i've ponned training for this whole week.
i'm just not in the mood. i know WTH. training also must have mood? YEAH. you need mood luh! OK. i'll make up for it alrights? promise.

aft towning with caro, jella and cass, i became more and more emo. to the extent i didnt talk at all. sorry! i was real emo. it's the i dont know what got over me emo-ness. ended up tearing. i'm sorry i just had loads on my mind. my heart and soul was disconnected. you know that kinda feeling. heart ache, heart break ): MEOW. i dont know how to put it. but i felt really sad. ever since v day. ever since this week. if you knew all these, i think you wouldnt have said anything at all. and i rather you didnt.

ah. shit. i hope the emo-ness fades away.

baby, this sucks. big time.

cas, thanks for being with me all the time. i know that i'm sucha horrible bun/bao. always happy and unhappy. right? but thanks for being there. really. <3 (: thanks for enduring my freaky mood swings and crappy times. the times you wanted to strangle me. but dont die ok? haha you gotta die in my hands and only in MY hands. MUAH HAHAHAHA.

i fought with my sister again. i know gramms supports me. cause my younger sister's really a pain in the arse. jella tay can totally vouch for this. you dont know how patient i am. and when i'm really pissed with her, THINGS happen. i'm irrational when it comes to anger management.

haha that's smth you gotta know mann. prospectives, take note yeah? HAHA.

darl, if you knew that this whole while i'd been faking my smiles, my happiness, i'll tell you the reason why. cause i'd rather be happy than be sad for this while, and not drag anyone else down into my pool of unhappiness and start wallowing in self pity. cause just as happiness is contagious, depression is contagious too (yknow not in medical terms but you know what i mean). i'm trying my best not to lose faith and hope. but it's difficult with such mind boggling things floating in my mind like moss on the pond. you know? cas, i'm sorry for dragging you into my bout of depression just now. i hope i made up for it later. right?

i'm trying my best to be a happy bunny. that's why i try to smile and laugh just as i used to.
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